1. |
The Bridge
05:57
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Take me to the bridge at the space between
I'm growing into it, it's where I see
Without taking a break I would've missed it
The red and orange spreading in the distance
The record spinning on would have no chance
To stop itself and become a river pouring out of my face
The song that was alone is finally somewhere
This fever's melting into clearer water
Take me to the bridge where I once looked
Underneath the foundation that was letting it exist
I've got a view of you and a view of them
And in the water, a perfect reflection
Done with making sense to who I've already been
Done with resisting what I always am
Every morning now when I awake
I see that silhouette leaving shadows on the ceiling
If I take a moment to look at them
I'll see that they are no one but a friend
An empty shell on the ground without it
What I once thought was alive was always dead
Always dead
It's a clear sky
No more gray eyes
It's a clear sky again
Not the same hue
I was born into
A fading, tinted ornament
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2. |
Scars
06:23
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Scars cover my brain, marks made from the shame
Just from speaking out, using my words
'Cause it's not that simple for me
When I'm caught on the hardest of sounds
Feels like I'm moving a mountain in my mouth
I know what I want to say but if I try
It'll probably ruin my day
From having to fight a battle with my mouth and a war in my brain
Once again, I just feel like a burden
All the pressure is on, and I just can't say it
Never ending circumstances keep me hurting
When it's better, the scars don't go away
Even when it's better, the scars don't go away
No, they stay
Oh, just can't explain how devastating it's been
I could've been like a flower blooming in the sun
But the clouds were always hanging over my head
I can never be free, even talking with my friends
I'm surrounded by my demons so I can't enjoy that without getting kicked down
Wish I could block out how they've looked at me
No, I don't want sympathy, I just want you to understand me
Once again, I just feel like a burden
All the pressure is on, and I just can't say it
Never ending circumstances keep me hurting
When it's better, the scars don't go away
Even when it's better, the scars don't go away
No, they stay
Deep down conversation might always weigh on me
'Cause all the times I was forced to speak only made me feel incomplete
But I won't pretend that I haven't grown into someone who can thrive on their own
It's just that when it replays in my mind I get a shiver in my spine
I wish I could un-live the moments I cried
And erase the shame I still feel inside
Once again, I just feel like a burden
All the pressure is on, and I just can't say it
Never ending circumstances keep me hurting
When it's better
I can't help but feel like a burden
The way my face contorts, I feel naked
These never ending circumstances keep me hurting
When it's better the scars don't go away
No, they stay, they stay, they stay, they stay
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3. |
In the Water
05:35
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Floating on my back, eyes up towards the clouds
That was the moment I sorted it out
That I was lacking a purpose I once had
Desperately clinging to values that I hold deep
Before they get lost
Floating on my back, eyes up towards the clouds
Connecting the dots inside of my life
From childhood to adolescence and
My new emerging age where I am no one
I'm upset because
I don't understand my own skin anymore
It doesn't make sense like it used to
Through this lens I didn't choose
Thought I knew
What it meant to be blue
Before that day in the water floating away
I like to think this feeling will fade out
but I've drifted so far, that I can't see the ground
No I'm not dreaming, not sweetly escaping
It is a haunting reality and out at sea
I lose my human nature
That lets me feel like one with others
Can't even make normal decisions
Without this feeling, close to sickness
Why does everything have to be so deep?
Pulling me away from others around me?
Like an entity underneath the surface is
Speaking in my ear, saying, you're just some creature, why're you doing this?
Why're you doing this?
Doesn't make sense like it used to
Through this lens I didn't choose
Thought I knew
What it meant to be blue
Before that day in the water floating away
The shore's getting smaller
The people are farther
They look like dots, who is anyone?
The people are so far away
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4. |
Fish
06:45
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Why does a week somewhat down the drain
feel like a century dedicated to being a waste?
Why does one wrong hold the weight of ten thousand rights?
I'm trying in disguises
Craving a breath from a look at the sky
When killing time
Feels like I'm taking years off my life
I move my thumb with no trace of what's mine
My body can't contain me, me…
Crystal clear dream
Took it out of me
Now maybe I'll swim to the bees
And their sweet honey
Live for the subtlety
I'll enjoy it for the taste only
Feel the natural blush
I'll make that enough
Enough
I'm made of scales but my eyes look for sheep
Wish for long sleep eternally
When I get up it is always the first thing
That comes for my life
I sleep on my stomach
Where all the problems live
The world is an ocean
I'm too tired to swim
No, I'm too afraid to swim
But I resemble a fish
Crystal clear dream
Took it out of me
Now maybe I'll swim to the bees
And their sweet honey
Live for the subtlety
I'll enjoy it for the taste only
Feel the natural blush
I'll make that enough
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5. |
Portrait Man
05:55
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I've been waiting on the colors to appear at my fingertips
As I gaze out in a daze in the middle of your spiel on sacred plays
I have to accept the time frame
After treacherous attempts it rises the same
Like the tide I trust it will again
Crash into the sand
Taking in the chime that's all around, all around
Ringing like the damage I have done just to find
The perfect way to turn it inside out, inside out
Living for the next time it lands
My new shirt makes the memories hazy
It's nothing like the one that lived on my body
When the cold draft came through to freeze me
Now my blood is warm and I move with the current
Feel the steady flow like a painter's hand
It'll always rise to the surface
Let the old one die as a new one's born again
Taking in the chime that's all around, all around
Ringing like the damage I have done just to find
The perfect way to turn it inside out, inside out
Living for the next time it lands
And I can get behind it
What they believed it could be
From that century long gone
But is time ever gone?
Well if it is, I know one thing's not and I'm
Gonna let it ring on and on and on
And on and on
And on and on
And on and on
And on and on
And on and on
And on
Taking in the chime that's all around, all around
Ringing like the damage I have done just to find
The perfect way to turn it inside out, inside out
Living for the next time it lands
Taking in the chime that's all around, all around
Ringing like the damage I have done just to find
The perfect way to turn it inside out, inside out
Living for the next time it lands
Living for the next time it lands
Living for the next time it lands
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6. |
Air
06:20
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Where the hell has adventure gone?
I hear Bobby sing his songs
There's this feeling of living and learning
Through the realness
Searching for what's out there to find
In the art of experience
Breathe in, breathe out
The light is growing in my mouth
I wanna know what's under the world's eyelid
Got out of the house today
Warm enough to go out in just my long sleeves
The album against my ears was far too loud
Someone could come kill me if they wanted to
But I kept it up
So lost in the sound
Closed my eyes to track four
Tanks of water took over
I see that day, 2008
There's nothing I would want to trade
If memories turn fogged and vague
Then what's the point in taking shape?
And we're not making any of them this way
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
You just might be missing the oxygen you're needing
Breathe in, breathe out
You just might be missing the oxygen you're needing
I wanna know what's under the world's eyelid
Breathe in, breathe out
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Return
06:19
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We'd build a world, then go heading for
The clearest shore and pine trees galore
Casino smoke now makes me feel full
None of it means what it means
Means what it means to me
Faded memories, coming back to me
When it faded away, I could still see the dust
It would get in the way of my vision
Five years apart weighing heavy on my heart
I can't put on a show, was never my choice not to call this home
Now that I'm back I can see that
It is all
It is all in me still
Return, I want to be real
It has to burn for me to feel
The driest heat paints ripples on the street
The distant creatures made of rock look down at me
A carved up house with scents that live inside my dreams
None of it means what it means
Means what it means to me
Nothing's what we make it out to be
These faded memories, now right in front of me
All morphed and twisted up, what does this make of me?
Out here in this side of the country
Out here in this side of the country
Out here
Return, I want to be real
It has to burn for me to feel
Return, I want to be real
It has to burn for me to feel
Return, I want to be real
It has to burn for me to feel
Return, I want to be free
It has to burn for me to feel
My eyes are a broken tap
My eyes are a broken tap
My eyes are a broken tap
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8. |
Cherry Blossoms
08:05
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Here I am
Surrounded by falling petals
Pale pink rain
They stick to your palm if you catch them
They're only here for a few days
Like someone you love from out of state
Instantly sparking recollections
Where the pink blossoms resonate
So, I soaked it up
Just like the song that I had heard
After a week apart from where my soul resides
It's like my soul
Has opened up to excitement
That hasn't been in here since I was a child
It seems so strange
That now that I am grown and understand
The bigger picture I feel more like that
That little kid
It's waking up inside of me and giving me reasons to live
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope, I hope
It lasts
It lasts
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope, I hope
It lasts
It lasts
The green's appearing now
Spreading its way through the town
The soggy, turning petals are stuck in the cracks in the ground
And in the sidewalks
And the hoses are rinsing them out
I miss the smell of those hoses
So much is traced to our noses
You could live over and over in a moment
If you just smell those hoses
So, I soaked it up
Just like the song that I had heard
After a week apart from where my soul resides
It's like my soul
Has opened up to excitement
That hasn't been in here since I was a child
It seems so strange
That now that I am grown and understand
The bigger picture I feel more like that
That little kid
It's waking up inside of me and giving me reasons to live
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope, I hope
It lasts
It lasts
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope
I hope, I hope, I hope
It lasts
It lasts
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